Thursday, May 22, 2008
Life is really all about decisions. We are at the place we are in life right now because of our own decisions, as well as those around us or even people we may not even know. Our choices really do make a difference in the grand scheme of things. We may not be able to see the direct impact today, but it is there. A seemingly small option could even mean life or death. And you know, it is my wonderful and exciting privilege to make the decisions that I think are best for me. Even though it may be a smart thing to do to think about others when making decisions, the only person you can really decide anything for is yourself. It is prideful and arrogant to assume things for other people. I know I really hate it when people make decisions for me, especially people who don't even know me. It is like they think they can decide what is best for my life. Even my close friends and family, I would never assume to tell them what to do with their life. If they ask my opinion, I will give it freely, but never in that bossy or arrogant way. To be a good friend or family member, all I can do is try to support people to educate themselves so they can make the best decision for themselves as possible. Even if I don't agree, I totally respect a person's autonomy to decide what they want for themselves. Anyway, that is way too much pressure to decide something for another living being. I barely can decide what I want, let alone what someone else wants :) In the past I have stressed so much over choices and how they will affect others. In all honestly: who fucking cares? I am going to do what I want when I want. WHATEVER I DO WHAT I WANT! :) It is funny though, when I make those choices that really bring me happiness, it magically jives with other people too. I don't feel neglected or abandoned, because I am looking out for me. When I am happy, I can help other people get to that place too. I know it sounds completely selfish, and it really is. But, life is good and I'm going to enjoy it!